Goodbye &furthermore, you know you miss her, you miss her picture.

I really do.
i wish you would come back 

Farewell the Ashtray girl

Dear Alycia,

Meeting someone on the internet is something that from now on I am always going to think twice about; for my own sanity, to be honest. Im going to rely on your ignorance to never reply to this, let alone READ this. You’re too consumed in yourself to even bother to do as much as reply to a message that i send you.


You changed so much. You are a pathetic waste of my existence, you cannot even balance out your life in a healthy way. You go about as if you’re the most caring and selfless person in the world, yet really you are one of the most selfish people i have ever met. It is cruel to allow someone to get so attached, so used to you, so used to talking to you for hours and hours on end every day and then just drop them, without a word as if they mean nothing.


The fact that you can have the heart to do this; not even have the decency to @ me or drop me a text, even write a letter, to explain your actions is actually sickening. Take that sentence about “valuing” your friends more than “anything” off your myspace because it is utter bollocks. You are so full of shit. You don’t even feel a pang of guilt or remorse in your heart after what you have done? You have singlehandedly RUINED our friendship forever. Of all the people I speak to, you are the one person I least expected this behaviour from, and out of all the people I’ve ever spoken to, you are the one who I truly thought ‘we are going to be friends forever’. 


I obviously did not mean as much to you as you did to me, or still do in fact, but I can categorically say I have never had someone act as much of a bitch to me as you have over the past few months. I’ve had friends that I’ve drifted from, but none that have just cut me off from their life like you have. I hope you realise the mistake you’ve made and that one day karma will get you back for being an utter imbecile. It always does.
Please never forget me though. I’d like to think that I impacted your life if only for a short time, and if only through technology. I don’t know when we’ll speak again, if ever, but as of right now my wish is to only remember the good things: 


The videos, no sleeping, fansites, planning, Bonnie and Clyde, craig blair, AIM bouncy balls, roleplay, Spelling Liek This ^_^ !, moulin rouge, me or the pidgeon, trying to say Connecticut, english food, time differences, summer 2008, getting mad at you for no reason, being perverts, webcams, phonecalls, art teachers, living together in surrey, VOICELCIPS, and accidentally falling asleep all those times.


Writing this actually made me cry, and although I am absolutely furious at your actions, there is no doubt that I want everything to go back to normal.


If not, I hope you have a nice life. I hope that one day you are able to escape from your deluded, over-bearing family and actually LIVE. Thank you for all the memories, and thank you for all the happiness and support you gave me throughout the period we were friends.


I miss you so far, forever.

Charlie xo

FTK - Vagiant.

pretty obsessed with this song at the moment. not gunna liiieeee

  

forgettmyname:

fuck i love this song
new found glory - the promise

The original version by When In Rome is way better.

Homophobes V Homosexuals

Homophobes are against homosexuals & homosexuals are against homophobes. both insult the other constantly then r convinced they’re politically correct. 2 wrongs dont make a right. Just seems pretty pointless to me. if ur against gay people, dont fucking berate&insult;them then make out you’re the “victim”in the situation i.e “Ohhh i live in such a messed up world,they’re such evil &disgusting;people” (isn’t it evil 2insult people who have done NOTHING 2u? therefore that makes u a hypocrite??). On the flip side, homosexuals, to defend themselves,make all these campaigns &directly;insult homophobes calling THEM “evil” people &its;like dude wtf why rise 2the bait &do;exactly to them what they’re doing to you?I think everyone should just stick 2their own beliefs & their own life & not cause themselves to look like such intelligent hypocrites by insulting the other.Personally, i am very much FOR homosexuals and am in no way, shape or form, a homophobe but i DO know people who are homophobic yet don’t go out making gay peoples lives a misery by physically insulting them. yet it’s every person who is regarded as a “homophobe”(even the ones who DONT publically make it known) get fucking insulted as well. it just enrages me. Be homosexual, be straight, be homophobic, or be neutral but DONT make yourself look like a brain-dead idiot by insulting everyone who doesn’t believe the same thing as you.The world has bigger things 2worry about i.e TERRORISM?? yes? &its;fucking irritating how the topic of conversation is always about gay rights, homophobic issues,etc. Everyone should stick to their own fucking business.The End.

PS this is not to insult anyone,
world peeeeace \o/

Please, please, don’t leave me

So I think Im finally coming to grips with the fact you’re not coming back. It’s almost March, if you were going to come back, you would’ve done already. Like I said… I think it’s finally hit me that I will probably never talk to you again and it hurts like nothing else I’ve ever felt in the fucking world. This feeling of pure loss… the knowledge I have that there is absolutely NOTHING I can do about it. It’s fucking heartbreaking and I just wish one last time I could talk to you, yell at you, laugh at you, cry at you, I fucking MISS you.

The Wedding Singer came on TV and I caught a glimpse of Adam Sandler singing “I wanna grow old with you” before I burst into tears and had to tell my mum to turn it off. I don’t think you actually realise what you’ve done… This is so serious and I am so depressed without you, crying every day, and the most confusing part is I didn’t even KNOW you. Not really. Obviously I didn’t, because the person I thought I knew would never have done this to me.

I miss you so far forever.

I’m gunna be re-doing my hair like this in march or april. this is the only “decent” picture I have of it.I miss that hair and the other day i only just found the hot pink extensions. I said i would never glue in them again cuz it was so much of a pain at the TIME, but after much consideration i think im just gunna stick em in my fringe again. Summer 2008 hair!
so study leave, pink hair, it’s on.

I’m gunna be re-doing my hair like this in march or april. this is the only “decent” picture I have of it.I miss that hair and the other day i only just found the hot pink extensions. I said i would never glue in them again cuz it was so much of a pain at the TIME, but after much consideration i think im just gunna stick em in my fringe again. Summer 2008 hair!

so study leave, pink hair, it’s on.

  

If we ever meet again - Timbaland ft. Katy Perry

Fucking tune. This is a classic example of a song i want to sing to a few people i’ve met in the past that i kind of drifted from, and wished i hadn’t. At the same time as being sort of nostalgic and saddening, it’s also makes you want to break out into immediate dance.

I have a fucking French exam tomorrow morning &then im finished by lunch time.What the hell. I hate french, and i havent revised. Awesome.

I can’t wait until summer holidays. This year’s gunna be freakin’ mint

Mother’s Doppleganger much?
I prefer her hair this colour to the bleach blonde.

Mother’s Doppleganger much? I prefer her hair this colour to the bleach blonde.

Tonight….<3

I got a train to Cambridge and saw Jess for the first time since August 2008. It was so fucking great to see her, I forgot how much I’d missed her and thinking about it now, I pushed her out of my life and let other people in when I shouldn’t have done, people who have now let me down and didn’t deserve half the things I did for them. Me and Jess fought a lot online, and actually had a huge argument just a few months ago, but today I just went down to Cambridge and we met up for a few hours and had the best time. It’s true when I think about it; a)I can’t hold a grudge longer than a week &b)Whenever I fall out with someone cyberly, we meet up &are always like “Wtf did we fall out for??Im sorry! I love you!” and now that I’ve seen Jess and we had such a great time, it seems really surreal I can hardly believe I’ve seen her.

It was a great finish to the week and I am sooooo happy I saw her today :) we reminisced about last time we saw each other, old laughs, had a good old catch up, and gah, it was just lots of fun :’) ! I love Jessybee. I’ll upload pictures and videos tomorrow.

Charlie=Happy! :D :D :D